#1—Devotion
Creation Date: 2022/11/24
From the moment I first heard the Gospel of a Living God and His Son who was murdered because He worked on a Holy day as well as forgave sins without condemnation, I literally took it to heart and started teaching the ways of Jesus to my family, to others my family introduced me to. I believed that this was what life was about. To follow virtuous ethical thinking and to get people to go to Church, be baptized, go to confessions, and receive the Holy Eucharist so that we may have eternal life in Christ, Jesus. I was between the age of 3 and 4 when I first experienced a Holy Mass at the only church I had ever laid eyes on. I stumbled upon the Church as people were entering for Holy Mass because I had heard bells ringing off in the distance near my parents home. I was home alone quite often and knew no word or existence of a God who created me. Much of my time at home alone was spent listening to a radio broadcast my parents turned on when they left me at home alone. I basically really learned to speak, read, and write from the radio. Sad, but true.
I learned later I was the first born, but my parents really only referred to me growing up as "little boy" so I basically didn't have a name that I feel they should have called me by. When I was left home alone, there was no food to satisfy my nutritional needs, which was why when I heard bells in the distance, I needed to find out if there was life outside the walls of my home and if there may be food somewhere because sometimes my parents did not return for two darks days and two light days. Dark days and light days were how I told time, and the radio broadcast I was listening to taught me how to count using what I would later learn was a roman numeral count like the "||||" lines, a "|" ever time light came after the dark.
The day I left to find the source of the bells off in the distance saved my life and I learned after being invited into the church to hear Holy Mass, the Holy Eucharist was the food and drink of Eternal life! That the Living God was present in this food and drink, and that it would satisfy hunger and thirst, and that it cures sickness! Oh, how I would long for years attending Holy Mass, getting to know the stewards of this Holy dwelling, them getting to know me, before I would be baptized at long last, go to confessions, and receive the food and drink that is Life!
I rejoiced and took it upon myself to preach the Holy Gospel, the teachings of St. Paul through the Epistles, and beg people to come to the Holy dwelling to be baptized and live in the light of the world! But, I would learn that there were those who spoke terrible of the Holy dwelling I had stumbled upon, but I would not let it hurt my faith in the Holy Gospel to explain why life was the way it was. I was relentless in dropping Gospel in conversations and tried to find others who had accepted the Holy Gospel into their hearts when they first heard the Holy Words. Though, I did find those who would spite the Holy Words of everlasting life. And by these people, persecution against me started, and as time passed, and we aged in the local school system, the benevolence and persistence of certain crowds to persecute those who accept the Holy Gospel as why life is the way it is was undaunting. I became aware that some crowds were so benevolent as to have karma systems in place and that there were kill lists my name was on for later in life because I was adament to not participate in sinful activities and that virtuous living was what I tried to get my classmates to live by. Some of these crowds simply believed that the world is the way it is because of good and bad karma. Bad karma is what they actually idolized, giving no consideration to virtuous action. Truely, I tell you some schoolmates of mine told me that their people had a scoreboard for how much bad karma would be dealt to their enemies when they turned 18 years of age. I was Holy shocked!
Regardless, devotion to the cause of preaching virtuous living as any sheppard would tend to the flock and go looking for their lost I felt was the way, that a true Living God created our beings, and to live life virtuous. I believed that one day I would become a steward of the Holy Roman Catholic churches because I believed in living the teachings of Christ, Jesus, and that to serve the Living God, there was no greater honor. I felt I was given purpose in the light of the world!
There are experiences I do want to get to in future posts because my life in Christ, Jesus, and my pursuits to preach and teach virtues and virtuous ethical thinking ever since that day I first heard the Words of the Living God spoken in a Holy dwelling and my immediate acceptance of Christ into my life sometime between the ages of 3 and 4, the people who had been crusading against me finally shuttered my emotions, and my emotions were in such turmoil I sought someone to help me work them out, but then it was as if Christ led me to some place that I feel now is an organization run by people who esteem amongst themselves as demi-gods, with power given to them by my country's government to become unholy inquisitors against the Living God's people.
That was my first impression of my first experience in an OMH affilate program because people were being paid to hold me hostage and physically assault me, force drugs into my body, just because I wanted to seek assistance dealing with emotional turmoil, and I identified to them I had a Holy Roman Catholic faith. My creed is Holy Roman Catholic.
The emotional turmoil was related to difficult and traumatic experiences that would only expound after my first experience with mental health organizations.
This seems like a good point to stop writing and reflect on a whole bunch of memories running through my psyche since sitting down and writing this blog post. I do want to eventually let go of the trauma whilst I put it to "paper". Perhaps others can relate, though I simply want to get people to see life in a Rural American area differently. That what I speak is actual events that have taken place, and that life in Christ, Jesus, can heal this world so we can all live together in harmony without karma systems which Jesus taught against.